PREVIEW

Have you just wanted to know...wanted to see a quick preview of your life? The beginning, middle and the end. Not every single detail, but the main players who will impact you. This can let you know who to let into your heart and the ones you should let walk right passed you without giving them a second glance.

Sometimes I wonder if I put too much energy in people and don't receive the same actions back. I follow the golden rule "treat those in your life the way you would want to be treated." It is not that I feel like I waste my time because I believe every person you meet will shape your life one way or the other and you will learn from them and grow. But I guess the preview will move certain things and people along so you don't get hurt by those who will have a negative impact on your life and this will allow you to know who will matter in the long run. I think the preview will give you peace of mind about your life and the choices you will ultimately make. I suppose the preview would be a "could be life" because if you don't like what you see you would know how to or who or what to avoid. I suppose I just want to know. Know what my life will be like who I marry, what my career will be, how will I turn out before my credits roll.

It's hard to tell yourself to live in the moment when all you are doing is questioning the future. WHO? WHAT? WHEN? AND WHERE? Who be the ONE, what is your life going to entail personally and professionally, when will you meet this person and where will your life take you.

We all wonder what our life is going to be like. We all have this picture of the ideal situation and yes maybe that person you thought was going to be on this journey with you may change from time to time. You picture, you wonder and are hopefully satisfied.

I think I want a preview to see what is in store for me...

Think about it and call me back :)

this IS your life… are you who YOU want to be?

Question for you – At what point is it ok to measure ourselves? When are we actually allowed to find a place in time and say I've done this, I've done that, this has been public, this has been private. How do we measure ourselves and what are we measuring ourselves against- Our limitations? Our goals? Each other? What is that measuring stick for ourselves? Is it what we want to accomplish? Is it what our parents have set out for us to do? Our peers? Our friends? Our bosses? Our co-workers? At what point do we find ourselves, saying to ourselves, ok this is good, this is bad, this is a success, and this is a failure. If your like me it's all in your heart. I'm really tough on myself and I think everyone is very different about how they measure themselves. For those of us that don't have what the public would perceive as extraordinary lives- how do you look back on your time and your experiences and measure those, I guess is where I am trying to go with all this. Experiences that we have had, friendships we've had, relationships we've had, jobs we've had, where does that all stack up for us? Are we trying to get to one particular point, is there just one lofty goal that were all trying to meet? Or do we have lots of little steps or I guess a latter where we have measurable goals along the way. Some people are always trying to live up to the standards that their parents present to them, some people who don't care what their parents think are trying to keep up with their peers. Some people only basically live to work and therefore their bosses are their higher power that they answer to. I think in trying to understand how everyone else measures themselves along the way I find myself wondering how I do the same thing and who in my life holds those measuring sticks for me. When I boil it all down it's always me. I'm always the hardest one on myself and I'm always the one who sort of lies in bed at night and says "did I do a good job today" and I am an over-thinker, over worrier and a planner, but ultimately we answer to ourselves. Why can't sometimes we give ourselves a break? I'm in a time right now where I'm questioning a lot of things all in a healthy way, I think. Trying to change some bad habits, trying to increase the good habits, trying to be a good person and I think that's all we can ask of ourselves. So how do we measure ourselves? Take a look at your own life. Who are your bosses in life? You? Your boss? Your friends? Your parents? How does it all measure up and then find out what is worthy of actually being that higher place, that judgment seat for yourself. Ultimately I think it should be ourselves because at the end of the day we are the ones that have to answer to our own attitudes and our own senses of self worth in achievement. So that's that… this IS your life… are you who YOU want to be?

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Happy With the NOW...

It's so strange with relationships. It is really all about timing and you just wish it would click because you know something is there, but for one reason or another there is a hitch. Which is strange, annoying and frustrating. I mean you have a successful life--great friends, great job, awesome family, but because you don't have that "person" in your life it almost feels a bit empty and whatever you do doesn't seem to be enough. Why is it that a significant other can determine ones happiness or worth? Why can't anyone be content with themselves and be happy with the present? Yes human nature, says there is always something more and one is ever satisfied, but why not try to look beyond that and be happy with the NOW. Personally, I am trying to live that way, to be satisfied with the now and not looking too far ahead, but having never had a true relationship, I am ready for one. Ready for that next step. I'm not talking white picket fence next step, but someone to share things with, do things with and be crazy with. To have those amazing butterflies constantly and to be done with the thoughts of the game, will this person text me or call or do i need to do it. I just want to feel free to contact and for them to contact me without hesitation of giving the wrong impression. I know what I want and I ready for it.... but again, why can't it just be here. And yet, I can't take my own advise of being happy with the NOW. That person will potentially make me the happiest and why is that? What is ingrained in our head that we won't be happy unless we have someone....

Think about it and call me back :)