Your Gut

Have you ever been so sure about anything in your life and just couldn't let yourself give up on it because you know deep down it is meant to be? I know I should try and not wait, not wait around and I should really try to see what else is going on in my life and focus on that, but a song, a movie, an event and they all bring me back to with what I am consumed with. Is there a reason for this? Is there a reason why I can't turn the page. Maybe because I'm not ready to turn the page, maybe I am just so numb I can't even lift the page to begin with.

I love. I truly love, selfless love... the feeling that I never thought I could have for anyone and really be able to express that love and now, I still have that love, maybe even more so because it isn't sitting next to me, or lying next to me at night or holding me. I miss his laugh, the sideways smirk when something is on his mind, the random hair on his ear, the kisses on my neck, our toes intertwined with one another. I miss him. All of him. I was happy with him and now I feel lost, sad, anxious and weary of what is down the road. I've given a lot of myself to someone and I don't regret one minute of it. Has it been an easy road, NO, but things that are worth anything take effort. Do I believe this could be an amazing relationship yes, and that is why I am not turning the page, that is why I won't turn the page. I feel it, deep down, I have never been more sure of anything in my life. Will it come true, time will tell.

Think about it and call me back :)